This post has been sitting in drafts for over a year now – December 9th 2016.  Why so long? Because I’ve been steadily feeling awful for over a year.  When I go back and read it I feel pretty naïve.

I’ve been doing great!!  Very little pain for the past 3 months.  I started to feel very good about my ability to manage this thing called fibromyalgia.

Then I over exerted and got a terrible emotional shock and now I’m one full week into a really horrible fibro flare up.

When you’re in bed and you can barely focus the internet is your friend.  I couldn’t focus on my work so I decided to do some fibromyalgia research.  I found out that it’s really hard to find an exhaustive list of symptoms and I do not know all he symptoms of fibromyalgia.

For example I didn’t realize that my rapidly growing cuticles were a symptom.  Who knew?

  • Pain
  • Anxiety
  • Concentration and memory problems — known as “fibro fog”
  • Depression
  • Fatigue
  • Headaches
  • Irritable bowel syndrome
  • Morning stiffness
  • Painful menstrual cramps
  • Sleep problems
  • Numbness, and tingling in hands, arms, feet, and legs
  • Tender points
  • Urinary symptoms, such as pain or frequency
  • cognitive and memory problems (sometimes referred to as “fibro fog”)
  • sleep disturbances
  • morning stiffness
  • headaches
  • irritable bowel syndrome
  • painful menstrual periods
  • numbness or tingling of the extremities
  • restless legs syndrome
  • temperature sensitivity
  • sensitivity to loud noises or bright lights.

Since then I have had every single symptom on this list.  I have tried so many things to try to get my body and my life back.  It feels that every time I make any progress I get a major setback. I feel the need to record my journey with chronic illness but I don’t feel that the yoga with Mo blog is the right place for it.  I am also having difficulties in general talking about all that I am going through.  I don’t think holding it in is healthy so I will be blogging about living with chronic illness at my new blog  notterminal.wordpress.com.  It will be a private blog because I am want to be totally honest about what is going on and it could get dark and gross.  If you would like access just let me know and I will grant it to you.img_1560

Hopefully I will see you on the dark side.